Hey Hi !! I'm back blogging .
This post is really meant for him . Short introduction on him . He is Muhammad Elfian Bin Abdul Japar , age 23 this coming September . Okay now , how do I get to know him ? It's from Norizan (: Let's get started .

I never thought that we will be this close . Yes , he'll be there to put smile on my face and push away all those frown . He's the sweetest among all and I named folder of us in facebook SWEETEST too . Okay , it's started by going out with him for Gelare on December 27 . And since then we have our regular contact . At first , I really don't feel good to be close to him as I might hurt Izan's feeling . But after the Incident of Izan's boyfriend insulting me , I don't give a damn on Izan's feeling anymore .

As day by day , me and Elf getting even closer and closer . I bring him meet my friend and he bring me meet his friends too . That's awesome ! We went out together , the 2 of us always . Town town and town . That's the place where we visited the most . Hehs !

But the saddest part came in here . So on the day I trimmed my hair and cut my frindge on 25 February , we went out to town again . He kinda don't like on my new image and keep saying things to make me feel offended . So when we depart from each other , that was the time we last being close together . It lasted for days . I miss him , yes I do . After he keep asking why we are not like before , I tell him the reason and he try changing himself to be like the one he used to be . But he failed . I can see that from my own eyes . Till today , I don't mind if I didn't get his attention the whole day for as long as he called me , text me once a day , it's enough . Still he shows that I crossed his mind . Wish to be better but Izan's back to get his attention . So , I can wish nothing but only the best for you Two (:

Feeling towards him . Frankly speaking , I do fall for him . Yes , I do . But at times , I wake myself up from dreaming and get to reality . And again , there's time I fall again . I keep myself strong and keep pick up myself from falling . The end . Now , i wanna mandi and out to meet him . Byeeee ~

Hello Lovely Blogger !


I'm back for blogging here . Yey ! Well , there's so many thing bothering my life right now . Problems come but will never go . Haish . I know partly was fault . I mean , I keep on holding to my past . Ignore my present and never wanna go to future . Dear blogger , you wanna know what ? Effendi the one I've been blogging all these while have already leave me . And worst part is , his engaged . Engaged to that third party bitch . Weird part is , I still have this sense of feeling that he will come back to me one fine day . I'm not really sure with my feelings I thought of moving on but I can't . This feeling keep asking me to stay and stalk . Haish . I really miss that man of mine . How I wish we are a part not apart .

Next , now I'm no longer close with Naim , Nyna and Farhan . Yeah , it's them . Don't wanna say much about this , just a few words will do . I never pushes you guys away , I just wanna be alone . You guys misunderstood it . And mention that you're glad that you don't need me in life . Wohoo . You know what ? I won't regret for as long as you don't need me in your life . Hear that bitch !

It's been so long since I last update my blog . I've got so many story to talk here but nahh , I don't think so I will share all of it here . Well , let's get started here !